[BL] Debut in Interstellar After Retiring as Grim Reaper-Chapter 38: Choose The Team

Chapter 38: Choose The Team

Ever since yesterday night when they talked to Qin An, their past impression about him finally did not make them isolate him. Qin An is still cold and distant but he’s also polite and knows how to adjust himself.

Besides, he can feel that he’s not like others who’re full of arrogance. Although Qin An really has that too, he knew how to put himself and restrain himself unlike others just like the bad-tempered Chen Wei. So Xing Ren has a better impression of him now and can talk to him normally.

Another point is that Xing Ren actually notices that Qin An... is quite ignorant?

It’s not that he’s insulting him but as they talked and got along, he actually noticed how the young man often had confusion in his eyes. Even though he has a cold-like face, probably because he has now learned how to slowly let go of himself, there are times his real expression would leak unconsciously and for some other reason, the latter didn’t even notice it himself.

If not for Xing Ren’s keen observation, he wouldn’t notice it.

Although he was curious why he seemed to not know things, Xing Ren just thought that maybe because Qin An is younger than them or he has a different environment from his home.

Anyway, he didn’t know but just felt that this side of him is cute.

Like a hard stone but has a soft filling inside, doesn’t it?

"Are you hesitating?" He asks with a smile. In just one night, he also notices that even if he’s too cold... Qin An is actually somehow innocent in many ways. He seems capable but when they talk, he seems to be ignorant to some things here and doesn’t think about schemes.

He’s just straight forward.

Qin An looked at the smiling Xing Ren and nodded. He’s still actually uncomfortable about expressing himself but he knows he must adjust as soon as possible so he’ll try to get along well with others.

Qin An will try to have friends.

"Which theme do you want to choose?"

"... Devil and Vampire."

Xing Ren nods in agreement at his choices. "The choices are really fit to you. They are quite mysterious and ambiguous. However, you also have to consider the song itself. Maybe you think that the theme is good but how about the message of the song? That’s the very important one to consider because only a song that you can empathize with can give you motivation to perform better. It’s also easier to express yourself in that."

The message of the song? Qin An didn’t know the songs of each theme because he’s not from here. He hasn’t even heard any of it.

Fortunately, Xing Ren noticed his dilemma so he immediately explained it to him.

"The vampire theme has a romance genre. The song ’Bite Your Lips’ talks about a vampire who’s longing for someone’s blood. And because he also fell in love with a human, other than blood, he wants the other’s feelings. Qin An, if you choose this song, you’ll have to think about yourself feeling in love. Have you experienced being in love?"

Qin An shook his head.

Xing Ren nods and says, "Well, then you can also consider the devil theme."

Devil? Various extinct appearances from the devils that he had once thought flash inside his mind. Remembering their appearance made him speechless. He didn’t know if it’s because he’s ignorant to their aesthetic or it’s really just like that.

Devils have a very strong taste about black that is as black as charcoal and red that is the same with the blood. Even with the high-intelligent devils who often disguised themselves as humans or souls, they always wear black and red regarding anywhere they go.

Of course he cannot just judge it because even as a grim reaper only wears black from everything. Even at worst it was because he was not interested in humans, he never cared what kind of clothes he had.

And now, he’ll actually act like a devil?

"What is the song all about?"

Xing Ren tilted his head slightly. "Actually, it’s also a song about longing."

He frowned. "Longing?" Then it also meant falling in love?

"Longing about freedom."

Qin An stilled and looked at Xing Ren who continued speaking. "It’s about a devil’s longing for freedom to love and live. ’Save Me’ is about a devil’s plea to set him free from all the madness. Because he’s born as a devil, he’s destined to stay with evilness. But he doesn’t want that; so, the devil is shouting inside his heart about salvation and freedom."

"As you can see, the devil theme has strong and deep emotions. It also requires understanding dark feelings so it’ll be harder."

Qin An went silent. A devil’s longing?

A grim reaper is part of the underworld. Even if they don’t do bad things, they are born below and will always stay with death. Qin An had seen the endless pleas and madness not just from humans but also from other creatures.

Devils and demons, Qin An encountered both. He had fought and defeated countless of their kind and he knew how much they affected humans.

But, he never saw a devil nor a demon longing to break free from where they’re destined to be.

Just like him who never thinks about changing his lifestyle for freedom or anything. Qin An has a deep indifference inside him. He doesn’t longed for anything nor dream about something. Since he was born as a grim reaper, then he’ll just do his task simply everyday until it seems to be forever.

Until that night when the Judge asked him.

However, why did he choose to become a human?

Did he also have a longing inside his heart?

Why?

"An," Qin An was stunned by the name and looked at Xing Ren. The latter has a gentle smile on his face. "Can I call you by your name?"

He nods.

"An, you already knew what to choose, right?"

"...." Qin An didn’t know how to answer.

"Okay," Xing Ren patted his shoulder. "Go there immediately or you’ll lose a spot."

Qin An absent-mindedly obey him and also came to his senses when he stop in front of the captain that he chose.

He raised his head slightly and met Shen Lou’s eyes. The young man has always had the proudness between his brow as if he’s a son of heaven because he had everything he wanted and is even excellent.

Shen Lou still has that while looking at him. However, what stunned him was that in the next second, Shen Lou suddenly smirks and stretches his hand on him.

"Welcome to the team."

It wasn’t a question. Shen Lou is simply welcoming him as if he knew he’d be here. So, Qin An also raised his hand and put it on the young man’s palm as his silent agreement about his acceptance to the team.

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