[BL] Debut in Interstellar After Retiring as Grim Reaper-Chapter 44: Xu Xinyi’s Words

Chapter 44: Xu Xinyi’s Words

The lady raised her brow at him and motioned to follow her so he had no choice but to walk away. They went to the other side of the balcony and stood together, looking at the surroundings outside.

At first, Xu Xinyi didn’t immediately start talking but he also didn’t mind and just waited.

It was only after some seconds that she broke the silence between them.

"Why do you think I oppose you every time?" Unlike her usual strict tone, Xu Xinyi is calm and collected today. That actually surprised him a bit but sensing her seriousness, Qin An thinks that this talk might change him.

Qin An didn’t answer and just looked at her. Xu Xinyi was still looking at the surroundings, feeling the cold breeze from the air outside. The weather today is unusually dim but no signs of raining, just windy.

"Qin An... you’re the same as Shen Lou."

He was surprised but frowned. What does she mean?

"Arrogance..." She lightly shook her head as if disappointed. "Both of you are too young and it’s because of that that you’re too arrogant. Indeed you’re strong in your fields and achieved better than others, but is that enough to put your eyes at the top of your heads? You," Xu Xinyi looked at him, her eyes suddenly turning sharp.

"Why didn’t you take this stage seriously? If you think that being an idol is a shameful thing then why join? I thought you changed after elimination, yet looking at you inside the team, I think you became worse."

Qin An frown. Although he was a bit irritated at her words, he knew maybe she had reasons for suddenly saying things like this.

If it were in the past, he’ll probably turn colder. It’s either he would not care or would just do something to let that someone say something away from him. But now, Qin An would still frown but he will subconsciously stop himself from doing anything and wait for the other person’s explanation.

Maybe he didn’t notice but as days passed by, his ice-like face slowly melts, finally revealing some expression like an ordinary human.

"Why? I practiced harder and learned about what you said I’m lacking. Why isn’t that enough to let you see I changed?" He asks in confusion.

Instead of answering, Xu Xinyi threw a question to him. "What do you think about Shen Lou?"

Although he didn’t understand the sudden change of topic, he still answered her. "I think Shen Lou thinks too highly about himself." fɾeeweɓnѳveɭ.com

"Oh?" This time, it was her turn to look surprised as he seems to not care and even insensitive to others. "Explain."

"When I saw him performing on the stage, I thought it would be great learning from. However, for the past few days, I think I’ve been thinking too much. Shen Lou has the abilities but he doesn’t have the character of being a leader." Qin An answers bluntly. "Shen Lou only thinks about himself without consideration of others."

"So you agreed with your teammates?"

He pauses for a second. "Yes."

Xu Xinyi crossed her arms and looked back at the view again. "Then why didn’t you speak earlier? If you were dissatisfied, why didn’t you join?"

His eyes narrowed. "I thought it’s too troublesome. And Shen Lou is already the captain, since he won’t listen, why bother speaking?"

Qin An saw many grim reapers who thought they’re too strong and disdained the weak. They won’t listen to anyone and just do whatever they want when they think they are right.

"Then Shen Lou and you are the same."

Qin An didn’t understand again. "Why?"

"Qin An, why didn’t you see the situation clearly when you’re already saying this? You disdain Shen Lou’s arrogance about his attitude towards your teammates but aren’t you the same? Didn’t you also have this disdain towards Shen Lou? Both of you think you’re great, that’s why you look down on them. You’re the same." Xu Xinyi pointed it out and he didn’t answer.

Xu Xinyi was irritated when he didn’t speak anymore. "Classmate Qin, you didn’t say anything earlier not because it’s too troublesome but it’s your arrogance. You look down on your teammates for being pretentious while also looking down on Shen Lou because he has this attitude."

She completely faces him now.

"I actually opposed giving you a chance to get back here." Xu Xinyi begins speaking her inner thoughts, not caring about the cameras around her. "I knew it’ll be too troublesome having Shen Lou here and you’ll even add? But since they gave you a chance, then please grab this opportunity to change yourself." Xu Xinyi faces him and looks at him seriously.

"This is a group competition. It’s not just you who’ll debut. You are here not just to grab the spot. It’s an idol group, Classmate Qin, not an individual. So you have to fit here and join others. Soon, if you had the fate, you’ll be with the other six members on this journey. Treat yourself as someone who’ll be in a circle with them, don’t distance yourself too much."

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For the next few minutes, Qin An stayed on the balcony and let the cold air pass on his cheeks. His expression is unreadable but it’s obvious that he’s thinking something deep at this moment.

Her words were constantly ringing inside his head. He didn’t know what to do in these tight circumstances. Qin An couldn’t completely change the way he lives quickly, but he knew that in this competition, there are too many trainees who had the same goal as him.

If he can’t adjust himself and perform badly on stage, things will go bad again. What’s worse is that if he couldn’t get out in this rank, he’ll be eliminated. What will he do? Just remembering Li Bai and his crying expression made him feel a headache.

What a trouble.

Qin An e turned around and walked inside the building.

While he’s walking back to their practice room, he pauses when he meets someone in the hallway again.

It’s Shen Lou.

Their eyes meet and Qin An couldn’t help but subconsciously look down.

"???"

"!!!"

He was stunned.

Qin An saw the black shadow that he had seen inside the practice room earlier. It gradually formed into the shape of a large animal until he finally saw a pair of eyes on it.

It was a golden vertical pupil staring straight at him.

A beast? Qin An thought so, until the shadow showed its real appearance.

It’s a large black maine coon cat.

He was even more stunned.

What the hell?

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