I Am the Only Fertile Woman in the Game-Chapter 230 Love Is

Qiao Suisui hugged Zong Fang’s neck, burying her face into the side of his neck.

Zong Fang laughed, gently patting her back, holding her like holding a child.

"You’re already a mother, and yet you still cry so much."

Qiao Suisui rubbed her eyes and asked him, "Why don’t you ask me why I suddenly died and came back to life?"

Neither he nor Carl would ask if she didn’t mention it.

In fact, Zong Fang had always avoided this topic.

He pecked hard on her lips, warning, "Don’t say that word."

"Which, s..."

Before she could even finish the word, she was kissed forcefully by the man. fɾeewebnoveℓ.co๓

Zong Fang’s tongue entwined with hers, his large hand supporting the back of her head, deepening the kiss until she was almost out of breath before reluctantly letting her go.

"You’re not allowed to say it ever again."

"I understand."

She sat on his lap, swaying her pale legs, rolling her eyes, and tentatively said, "Actually, I don’t belong to this world."

Zong Fang showed no surprise, just his grip unconsciously tightened a bit.

"I know."

"You know?"

Now it was Qiao Suisui’s turn to be astonished.

Zong Fang hesitated for a few seconds, gently caressed her hair, and slowly began, "Sikoses told me. He said the first time he saw you, you couldn’t speak the language here and were very unfamiliar with this world, yet you didn’t seem like someone who had been sheltered all their life. You had your own opinions, ideas, courage, and even many qualities that the females here do not possess, nor the temperament of those who have been pampered from a young age. So he surmised you had lived a life we couldn’t even imagine elsewhere and, for some reason, you ended up with us unexpectedly."

Qiao Suisui was completely dumbfounded.

It seemed like she suddenly understood why Ruka had always felt so insecure...

Because he knew from the beginning that he didn’t belong here, he was afraid that one day she would return to her own world...

Yet he had never shown it in front of her.

How many days and nights had Ruka spent in anxious unrest?

And during which moments of their time together did he hide all his unease, always calmly accommodating her, cherishing her?

Zong Fang watched her tears fall like broken pearls and gently wiped them away. He knew that bringing this up would make her sad again, but avoiding the topic was not the solution.

Qiao Suisui cried, "So Ruka thought I would never come back, that’s why..."

Zong Fang shook his head, kissing her tears over and over, whispering softly, "It’s not like that. I asked him in the seventh year after you left," at that time Ruka had attempted suicide around a dozen times, every time hauling himself back from the brink of death. His cycle of suicide and self-rescue repeated many years, until even those around him grew weary of persuading him.

Back then Leberli got angry with him for being so irresponsible, not even considering Suisui’s child, and fell out with him.

Zong Fang himself had no heart to care for anyone other than Qiao Suisui, but thinking of the child as her continuation, he could not bear it and still went to see him once.

That was Sikoses like he had never seen before—void of any emotion, any expression, as if he was nothing but a corpse. And yet, he could still talk to you normally, though not much was said, you clearly knew the person in front of you was alive.

That shocking and contradictory feeling was too strong, such that Zong Fang could never forget it.

"You don’t need to seek death repeatedly. Since you know she doesn’t belong to this world, maybe she will come back for you and me."

Sikoses just sat silently, after a very long time, so long that Zong Fang thought he would not speak, he finally heard his hoarse voice, "I am just filled with guilt."

Zong Fang was taken aback, "What?"

"I was right beside her and yet didn’t notice she stopped breathing." Ruka’s gaze was vacant, his eyes weary as he closed them. "She definitely didn’t want to leave on her own. Before she fell asleep, she asked me to wake her up... She said she couldn’t bear to have me wait... It’s me, it’s me who didn’t protect her well..."

Everyone thought Sikoses was a weak lover who abandoned his own child just to find release for himself.

But Zong Fang knew, he wasn’t seeking death in that way, but was trying to find a path to her world with that method.

Just for the last time, Sikoses himself might not have expected that he would end his life then and there.

Zong Fang couldn’t bring himself to tell her such a cruel truth, for it was essentially akin to tearing her heart into shreds, a second injury.

He kissed Qiao Suisui and said, "Qiaoqiao, if you want to go back to the past to save him, then go, because I know, no matter which point in time, it is me who loves you the most."

"So no matter where we are, or when we meet, it won’t change the fact that I only love you."

Tears streaming down her face, Qiao Suisui hugged Zong Fang tightly, gaining infinite courage in that moment.

If Zong Fang at this moment had to say something to his past self, he thought he would tell him that love was not just about possession.

Love is a presence that makes one feel warm and whole. It’s not just desire and passion, but a persistent vision.

Love is choosing to face whatever is ahead together with her, not just standing in front of her to shield her.

Love is being willing to patiently understand the whispers of her heart, to grasp why she feels what she feels in the moment.

Love is the willingness to accept and embrace the dissatisfaction you find in the relationship, rather than trying to change her.

Love is being prepared to make concessions and sacrifices for her happiness, because her joy is your joy.

Love is when you are together, feeling content and at peace, even without speaking a word.

Love is believing in her, that no matter the situation, she will return to your side.

...

The next day.

Qiao Suisui and Zong Fang said goodbye, leaving the house as usual, neither displaying much emotion, for they knew they wouldn’t lose each other.

But Carl, upon learning her decision, insisted on disagreeing.

"I’m going back with you," he said, never having been so serious before.

For the fifth time, Qiao Suisui patiently explained to him, "Time Retrospect only works on me, Carl, I’m just going back to the period when Anubis and I were locked in the water dungeon to make a tiny change, I promise, it won’t affect what’s between us."

Carl covered his ears, "Yesterday’s me and today’s me are already different, what guarantee do you have? What if you decide that I was more handsome over ten years ago and get sick of the current me?"

Qiao Suisui couldn’t help but laugh and cry at the same time.

"You are still handsome now," she reassured him.

"The young me was more handsome."

"They each have their own charm indeed."

"See, see, you’ve admitted it. You just like the former me," he accused.

Unable to win the argument, Qiao Suisui’s eyes darted around before she beckoned him with a curled finger.

Carl frowned, clearly unhappy, arms crossed as he said, "What? Don’t think you can seduce me with that pretty smile."

The next second, Qiao Suisui stopped smiling and glared at him, prompting Carl to sulkily approach.

She went on her tiptoes and whispered in his ear, "Do you want a little leopard cub?"

Carl’s ears instantly turned red, but he still put on a tough front, "Are you trying to bribe me?"

"You don’t want it? Then forget it."

As Qiao Suisui turned to walk away, the man quickly pulled her back into his arms.

"I don’t need a little leopard cub, I just need you. I’m warning you, love me properly, no more silent departures."

Carl hugged her tightly, burying his head in her shoulder, his voice already carrying a slight cry, "I’ll be right here waiting for you and Summer."

Qiao Suisui: ?

"Who is Summer?"

Carl pretended to wipe tears from the corner of his eye, saying with a remarkably casual tone, "Oh, Summer is my unborn daughter."