Mated to Four Alphas-Chapter 201: Apologized

Silas’s POV

"Damon, do you even realize what you’re saying right now? And you’re telling me not to ignore you? Do you even remember what you did to me? And how many times, even back then—when I went to that party with Jeren—what were you telling me? "

"Calling me characterless? And when your brother Kael said those dirtiest things to me, and I slapped him, what did you do? You punished me and forced me to apologize to him. And then sent me to your Lupin pack."

"You never considered my feelings. Even though you confessed to me twice, still, I don’t think you love me. I think it could be attraction. Maybe you liked my face. That’s why you’re saying you love me—but it’s not love."

" It’s lust, I think. If you really loved me, then you would have believed me over everyone else. You would have known that I’m hurt, and I can’t do things like hurting someone without a reason."

I told him many things. It’s not just about that night when Kael hit me—he also threatened me about the contract, about working in his company.

Instead of scolding his brother for hitting me, that was the moment he lost all the respect in my eyes.

The Damon I first met, he was a gentleman. I used to respect him. And he is not that Damon—the one standing in front of me now.

I know it’s life, people change. But if change is like this, then it would’ve been better if I never met Damon in the first place. That would’ve been the best thing in my life.

As I said that, Damon’s face looked full of guilt. But what could I even do with his guilt? When everything is already over. And when I remembered now, we even kissed. That was my first kiss, and it was stolen by him.

If he had told me back then that Orian was not their mate—like Theron explained to me—if he had just told me, I think me and Damon could’ve gotten into a relationship right at that time.

But I guess that wasn’t in our fate, because Destiny already knew what was going to happen.

In fact, we don’t even know what’s going to happen in the next ten minutes—but destiny knows. It knows what’s going to happen tomorrow, in three months, in five years.

It knows everything. And everything is written in our fate. I know that. So no one can change that.

"Damon, please, please don’t apologize to me. I can’t bring myself to forgive you. Please, don’t make things hard for me."

"Silas, I’m not telling you to forgive me. If it looks like that, then I’m sorry. I just wanted to let you know how I’m feeling."

"Then please don’t let me know how you’re feeling, because I don’t want to know. There are many things happening in my life. You know, I saw death in front of me too. If that day I couldn’t save myself, then the next day, me and that little kid would’ve died. Our body parts would’ve been in pieces. And who knows—before killing me, those Alphas could have raped me too."

My voice was getting hoarse as tears welled up in my eyes. Just thinking about that night makes me want to cry, because that night, I was very helpless in front of those six men. And they were Alphas.

They had big, sharp weapons. If even one of those weapons had hit me, I would’ve died that night. They even grabbed Velric to make me strip.

It’s all thanks to the Moon Goddess that I’m still alive. In my whole life, I was never grateful to the Moon Goddess. I always thought she made me different.

That I’m not like other Omegas. But it’s thanks to her that I’m not like other Omegas.

If I were weak that night, I would’ve been the prey of predators. But thanks to the Moon Goddess.

I had never killed anyone in my life—and that too, a human. But I killed six men. And I did it mercilessly.

I still get shivers down my spine when I remember their dead bodies. It’s all thanks to Theron too, because he helped me at that time. He comforted me.

I started to cry because I was feeling pathetic. And that feeling—I still can’t forget it. I will remember that feeling for the rest of my life.

How I was pinned down on the ground by those six men. How they held my legs, my hands, and started cutting off my clothes. That helpless feeling will always remain in my mind, in my heart.

As I was crying, Damon stepped forward and was about to hold my hand—but I jerked away, because I didn’t want him to touch me now. I get scared, but I can’t show it.

I get scared when another Alpha comes near me. It’s not the same when Theron touches me, but when Damon touches me too—I feel the same. Scared. Because I remember those six Alphas.

"Silas, are you okay? Don’t cry anymore just because of me, ’cause I don’t like seeing you cry."

And just then, we heard loud crying coming from inside the villa. As soon as that voice reached our ears, we both looked at the villa at the same time and then exchanged glances.

We both ran inside the villa quickly, and I was worried—what happened now? Were there ghost reappeared or something? Because Theron and Velric were sleeping. But hearing that scream—I could tell. It was Velric’s.

And when we reached inside, I saw Velric sitting on the sofa crying, touching Theron’s back. Theron was sitting and—

And Theron was throwing up blood. There were blood splashes all over the ground, and Theron was still vomiting.

Seeing that, Velric looked terrified. I quickly rushed to them, and Theron’s face was getting pale.

But even then, he stopped throwing up blood, wiped his face, and smiled at us like he was fine.