[BL] Dear Hushand, I want divorce-Chapter 89: And then he left

Elijah’s pov ;

I tore through the halls of the hospital, my feet pounding against the linoleum floors. Every corner, every hallway, I searched frantically for any sign of him. But it was as if he had vanished into thin air. My mind raced with fear and desperation as I sprinted to my car, driving recklessly towards our house.

I burst through the door, yelling his name over and over again. The rooms echoed back at me, empty and devoid of any trace of him. I tore through the house like a crazed animal, flipping furniture and ripping open drawers in my desperate search.

"Ash! Please, where are you? Answer me!"

But there was only silence. A deafening silence that suffocated me and made my heart race faster. Tears stung my eyes as I refused to accept that he wasn’t there. He had to be somewhere in this house. He just had to be.

With trembling hands, I drove to Noah’s house, my last beacon of hope. My knuckles were white as I pounded on his door with all the force I could muster. When he finally opened it, I grabbed him by the collar, my eyes wild and bloodshot from tears.

"Where is he?!" I shouted, shaking him violently. "Where is Ash?!"

His face contorted in shock and confusion as he tried to push me off of him. "What are you talking about? Ash isn’t here," he exclaimed, his voice rising in alarm at my frantic state.

With a fierce shove, I pushed him aside and barged into the house, my heart thundering in my chest with apprehension. Every room, every corner, I searched frantically, calling out his name.

"Ash!" My voice broke on his name, tears already starting to well up in my eyes. "ASH!"

But there was nothing. No sign of him anywhere again. Noah followed close behind me, demanding answers, but I couldn’t focus on anything except finding Ash. My hands trembled as I rifled through closets, pushing open doors with desperate strength, my breath coming in ragged gasps.

But Ash wasn’t there. Where the fuck has he disappeared?!

Back in the living room, I stumbled and huffed, sweat starting to form on my brow as my vision blurred with tears.

Noah’s face twisted with concern as he watched me closely. "Elijah...he isn’t here," he said softly. "Wasn’t he at the hospital?"

I pushed him away harshly, refusing to believe his words. "You’re lying!" I shouted, my voice trembling with misery. "He’s here, I know he is! I can feel him!"

But deep down, I knew the painful truth. Ash was gone. The realisation hit me like a physical blow and my knees gave out beneath me as I collapsed onto the floor, my head buried in my hands as sobs wracked through my entire body.

"Ash...please," I choked out between gasping breaths. "P-Please...come back to me. I’m sorry...I’m so fucking sorry..."

Painful tears streamed down my face, blurring my vision as I cried out for him in anguish. It felt like I was dying. No, this feeling was worse than dying. My chest....it hurts. I want...him. Please....please...

"I’ll never hurt you again, I swear! I’ll protect you, do anything for you...just come back to me. Please, A-Ash...I forgive you. I don’t blame you for anything. I was wrong...so wrong...just don’t leave me. Don’t be a coward, don’t run away from me now. I need you...I know you’re hiding...please come out, l-love."

But the house remained eerily silent, my words ringing out and bouncing off the walls. He didn’t come out.

He didn’t...

My body shook with even more violent sobs, the reality of what I’d lost hitting me with brutal force. "Ash..." I whispered, my voice breaking as I crumpled to the floor, broken and defeated. "Please...don’t leave me."

But there was no response. No comforting touch from his hand or reassuring words from his lips. Just the suffocating silence.

It felt like he was slipping away from me, slipping through my fingers like grains of sand. It was a sensation that felt all too familiar, one that reminded me of when I lost my parents.

It felt like he was abandoning me just like they had. The thought twisted and clenched in my chest like a knife. Was I destined to lose everyone I cared about? Was this some cruel punishment for all my past mistakes and failures?

How could he do this? How could he leave me? Was this really who he was—a weak coward who couldn’t face the pain he caused and continue to suffer?

"Ash! Ash, please! Why are you doing this? Why are you running away? You’re such a coward! Did you...d-did you hear? I said you’re a coward!!"

My hands trembled as I gripped my hair, tears streaming uncontrollably down my face. "I love you so much, Ash! I’d die for you, I’d do anything to make this right. I am aware of my mistakes, and I know I have caused you pain. But please, please, do not give up on us. You mean everything to me, and the thought of losing you is unbearable. I..I will die..."

My eyes burn, but I can’t stop the tears. They flow freely, hot, and filled with pain. My throat tightens as I try to hold back a sob, but it escapes.

I thought we had time. I thought we could fix this, that we could find a way back to each other. But he just...left. No explanation, no goodbye. Just gone, like I never mattered.

God, I can’t breathe. I don’t know what to do with this pain, this emptiness that’s gnawing at my insides. How do you move on when the person you thought you’d spend your life with decides you’re not worth fighting for? How do you keep going when your heart feels like it’s been ripped out of your chest?

"I a-am so sorry, baby. For everything. I was blind, I didn’t understand. B-But I love you. Please come back to me. I cannot face this world without you by my side. The mere idea of losing you forever...it’s too much to bear."

I clutched my chest, trying to hold myself together, but I was exhausted both mentally and physically, I was shattering piece by piece. What do I do now? How do I face tomorrow when today is nothing but a nightmare?

"I know I have been foolish and wrong, but I would do anything to make things right. Everything I have, everything I am...I would give it all up just to hold you again, to tell you how much I love you. Don’t leave me like this..."

I loved him. I still love him. But it wasn’t enough. I wasn’t enough. And now I’m alone.