I Am the Only Fertile Woman in the Game-Chapter 285: Author’s Message (Subscribe with Caution)

145 days later, the serialization ends today, punctuating the story with a perfect full stop.

This story is now very complete, but Qiao Suisui’s life is just beginning.

The ending I originally set did not get written, as I used to think that a grand finale should have a climax and make big news with a bang. On the contrary, this time I prefer the story to continue quietly, without any feeling of an ending. This is not a rush job, but a choice to leave it unfinished.

Because the rest of Qiao Suisui’s journey will definitely become more brilliant, rather than an ending, it’s better to say it’s a new beginning. And all of that, I leave to the readers’ imagination.

Those who know me well might be aware that I write a post-mortem after each series ends, so this one is no exception. Next, I’m going to talk about the ideas during the creation process. Interested readers can join me in this experience and see if your understanding of this work aligns with mine.

But before starting, I’d like to express some personal thoughts. This book took five months to serialize, and I don’t know how to thank those of you who walked through these five months with me. I really, truly appreciate it.

Though most people still prefer completed stories, I have a soft spot for readers who follow serializations.

You gave me inspiration, support, encouragement, and warmth, accompanying me through the writing of 600,000 words.

Lots of changes happened in my real life over these five months: moving houses, job-hunting, adapting to new environments, working on an extremely tough project, dealing with bosses quitting, disagreeing with CEOs, being emotionally manipulated by superiors, falling ill, quitting... But of course, not everything in my life is bad. This book was a pleasant surprise for me, although at times when traffic was at its peak, I dared not read the comments since they could vary so widely.

But if you’re still reading now, it means you’ve come to know me, to know that I am an author with a temper and yet quite fragile.

I often say I’m lucky because my readers spoil me a lot.

It’s exactly this special kind of ’spoiling’ that makes me feel obligated to bring you a better story. The situation of the new book will be updated in the QQ group and on Weibo. This time I will write about a woman ’bad’ at ease wandering among various men.

Now, let’s talk about the ideas behind this book.

Initially, I wanted to tell a story where the protagonist is doted on, and writing pure fluff isn’t impossible for me, but I always fall into ’wise man’s time’, feeling all of it to be so fake. I’ve never met such a man in all my years, then I would have to rely on my imagination to create a perfect high-quality male, intoxicating the readers with a romantic fantasy.

Yes, we can make money this way, but it really doesn’t feel right.

So, I created contrasts within the book: reality and game contrast; virtual and real contrast; Guan Weizhi, Han Chen versus Ruka, Zong Fang...

In the end, Qiao Suisui completed a journey of self-transformation, not only finding love in the game but also making strides in her career. I believe everyone can feel the changes in the protagonist from the beginning to the end. She is not a simple, flat, tender feminine lead nor can she be categorized as a strong female lead but a girl who grows step by step into independence and confidence after experiencing various challenges.

However, I myself am not very satisfied with my design of this storyline. Romance comes naturally to me, creating an atmosphere with ease, but writing plot is like sitting in front of the computer, unable to pluck out a thousand words a day. I will learn and improve on writing plot lines; the ideal would be to run parallel lines, with both romantic and plot developments driving each other.

Regarding emotional flow, I’ve come to a small realization: shaping character relationships is more important than forcing storylines.

No matter the book, in the end, it’s the character relationships, the character personalities, that push me forward.

Saying this out loud, the readers would know this is something Zong Fang would say.

When this choice appears, readers can instantly understand that this is the choice the character would make.

So I believe that it’s the established characters that create stories.

Speaking of the controversial ’childbirth’ element, I’m actually not keen on it myself, so I didn’t describe the baby’s daily life in great detail, even deliberately stripping away the protagonist’s identity as a ’mother.’ Because I want readers to reflect after reading – do women need conditions to be loved? What are these conditions? Reproductive value? Beauty? Rarity? Or that I’m a good mother?

After writing this ending, the answer in my heart is clear – whether or not you are loved by a man is no longer important, what matters is that you love yourself. You have the ability to stand on your own, the confidence to actively love, the belief to create everything. In front of these realizations, does who loves you matter? Or rather, does it matter which conditions make someone love you?

You can indulge yourself in romance and love consciously because you know that you are the most important, and it doesn’t matter if anyone leaves.

And once you have this enlightenment, you will find that the people or things you’ve been clinging to will automatically gravitate towards you.

Looking back, the significance of writing "Lian Jiao" was completing my first long novel – the female lead reincarnates three times, from being set on saving her brother to eventually saving her country. The male characters in this book are more well-crafted than the female characters, so I reflected on my shortcomings and stopped treating the female lead as just a tool to push the plot, which led to my second book "I Never Intended to Become a God." This book features an ensemble cast, where every character, regardless of gender, even a minor one, was created to be lively and genuine. It’s a story of a faux deity woman who becomes a true divine after experiencing the breadth of Human World, and although those who’ve read it say it’s good, hardly anyone has. (Both were published on Tomato, maybe Tomato has a grudge against me.)

So I reflected again, wondering where the problem lay. Was it that I lacked innate charm and hence had no traffic?

Afterward came "I Became the Only Female in a Beast World, and I Can’t Hold On Anymore," a title that clearly shows my commercial intent, haha.

But as an author, you have to follow the market. When I was poorest, a 200,000-word book would earn just a few cents a day. I couldn’t keep it up and had to take a job. While working, I continued to write. No matter how late I worked overtime, the first thing after getting home was to write 4,000 words, sometimes until one or two in the morning.

This is why I am extremely thankful for readers who follow serializations and I also appeal to everyone, once you discover a good story, don’t skimp on your praise and encouragement because it can very well be an author’s only source of motivation.

In fact, this book also has pirated versions and I have always known about it but haven’t dwelled on the issue. I still hope everyone supports the official release, and if my words can make you feel a bit different in reality, if they make you happy, make you cry, provide you a moment’s respite during tough times, then no matter the format, I am very grateful for our encounter.

Lastly, I hope everyone will remember me, a crispy author specializing in polyamorous female-led stories, Mr. Wuyin.

Goodbye!